Here I go…. diving head first into this blog thing. The whole concept of blogging and letting the outside world into my life is pretty scary. So you are probably wondering “Then why start blogging?” Well, to be honest within these last two years, there have been some significant life changes, some good, some bad, but these changes have taken me on an emotional roller coaster, which have lead me to where I am today….Tiffany Ching Bean, Blogger.
Let’s start with 2014, I married the love of my life Mr. Bean. Mr. Bean was a country boy living in a small town outside of Yosemite Ca. We met while I was living in the San Francisco Bay area. If you had asked me prior to 2014 where I saw myself, without a doubt, it would have been in a big city, sitting at some fabulous happy hour, sipping on some overpriced cocktails. Well all of that changed when I became pregnant with our first child, Olivia. After careful thought and consideration, I realized that there was something sweet and humbling about raising my children in the country. Of course, all I knew about the country was what I had seen on TV… So one month before Olivia was born, I packed up my apartment in the city and we relocated back to my husbands hometown. It has been an adjustment for sure, but so far I do have to say, I am beginning to love this country life. Who would’ve thought?
Unfortunately, not everything is always sparkles and rainbows. The night before Olivia’s first birthday party, I was notified that my mother had been diagnosed with terminal cancer. So many emotions run through your mind when you are hit with unexpected news, and the only way I knew how to process everything, was with a giant dose of denial. I built up a huge wall, (even China would be impressed) and I carried on with my life, as if things were normal. When my mothers health started to decline, my Husband and I decided that I should go to Sacramento and be with her. With my wall still intact, I stayed with my mother till her very last moments.
Fast forward to May 2o16, I gave birth to my second child, James, and that is when it hit me. The moment I saw my beautiful new baby’s face, my wall began to crack. Every emotion that I had been keeping locked up inside, finally began to break free. I was so happy to be holding my new son, yet so suddenly grief struck that my mother would never get to hold James.
I’ve spent the last few months feeling pretty down and out. I would defiantly say that emotionally the last few months have been some of my lowest, but I have the desire to feel happy again. The way I see this blog is as a challenge to push down my walls, start rebuilding confidence, and become a stronger happier person. I need this blog, I need this blog badly!
So what can you expect to see in this blog? Well for starters a whole lot of pictures of my adorable children Olivia and James. Who doesn’t love baby pictures?!? But besides pictures of my children, I plan on offering you the whole me. A completely raw, candid, emotionally naked view of who I am.
I am a mommy making the transition from city life to small town. A lover of all things home décor. A creator of beautiful celebrations that bring my friends and family together. And hopefully if you were to ask my husband, he’d say a loving wife. So here I am world!
xoxo Tiffany Ching-Bean
P.S. as promised, here are some adorable pictures of my family 😉